Improvements

So yesterday I went to the doctor to get my new Mental Health Care Plan cause for the first part of the year I was on the chronic health care plan.

And we filled in the K10 (which is a not-great indicator but hey, it’s better than nothing) and my score was fucking 24 out of 50.

And like. I never thought I’d see such a low number. I can’t recall my previous numbers, just that they were high 30s or low 40s.

And that’s pretty darn swell.

I’m worrying about minor shit, like a total lack of libido, rather than whether I’m going to survive the next week. Around my period, I get extremely unwell, but the rest of the month I’m okay. Like, anxiety rules my life, but that’s mostly about legit things, like how to get the money for grad school and how I’ll cope living overseas. Normal people things.

Fuck. It’s nice. I’m not always good. I feel my eating problems coming back. But. I’m not terrible right now which is super duper.

apricotparrotmemes:

T’challa: Perhaps you are wondering, why I have called you here today. 

Bucky: *resignedly* Where’s the fight?

T’challa: Shit
dude no I just want you to explain how you talk to the love of your life
without freezing??? You’re super chill around Steve while I have to
practice for an hour before talking to Nakia???

trickerydickerydock:

ragnarokgay:

trickerydickerydock:

ragnarokgay:

The reason they killed Loki in the first ten minutes is because Loki absolutely would not have hesitated to kill Vision, or steal the time stone.

Avengers: Someone’s killed Dr. Strange and Vision!

Loki, admiring his new necklace and glowing yellow paperweight: Tragic

Wanda: if we destroyed the mind stone it would kill Vision D:

Loki, already stabbing him: oh no

Thor: Hey, didn’t Midgard have a wizard around here earlier? Loki, you remember the wizard, right?

Loki, currently garroting Dr. Strange with the time stone: I don’t recall

Um. I think I got into grad school 😱

I haven’t received an email yet.

But I had the funniest feeling this morning I should check my application.

And I’ve been admitted.

Fuck.

Fuck.

Wow.

I wonder if they send an official email. There was a letter attached.

Fuck me. I might finally get to fulfil my dreams of being a researcher 😭

Modern(ish) Musicals

thegoosejuggler:

I’ll list three musicals per “genre” with a short summary of each and three songs per musical to give you a sense of the show. 

Spectacular Musicals:
These are musicals with huge, show-stopping numbers with the same feel as all your classic faves. You’ve probably at least heard of all of these.

  • Newsies
    • Newsboys strike when the prices of papers are raised
    • Songs
      • Santa Fe
      • Carrying the Banner
      • Seize the Day
  • Anastasia
    • Two charming Russian conmen try to pass off an orphan girl as the lost princess Anastasia
    • Songs
      • My Petersburg
      • Once Upon a December
      • In a Crowd of Thousands
  • Wicked
    • The Wizard of Oz told from the Wicked Witch’s perspective
    • Songs
      • The Wizard and I
      • Popular
      • Defying Gravity

Subtly Beautiful Musicals:
These are musicals without much flashy production value that just let their songs and stories simmer beautifully. For all of these, you really need to hear the whole show, but I’ll list three songs as a good starter.

  • The Last Five Years
    • The story of a doomed relationship told from two perspectives simultaneously, backward and forwards
    • Songs
      • Still Hurting
      • The Next Ten Minutes
      • If I Didn’t Believe in You
  • The Band’s Visit
    • An Egyptian band is sent to a tiny Israeli town by mistake and must spend the night there
    • Songs
      • Omar Sharif
      • Something Different
      • Answer Me
  • Fun Home
    • The story of a woman finding her identity and making sense of her relationship with her father
    • Songs
      • Ring of Keys
      • Maps
      • Flying Away (Finale)

Popcorn Musicals:
These are musicals to listen to and turn off your brain–the sort of show you can watch while munching on popcorn.

  • Legally Blonde
    • A ditzy blonde follows her ex to Harvard (not as sexist as it sounds)
    • Songs
      • Omigod
      • Better than Before
      • Take it Like a Man
  • Heathers
    • Two high schoolers go on a murder-spree
    • Songs
      • Fight for Me
      • Our Love Is God
      • Seventeen
  • Catch Me if You Can
    • A young man leads an FBI agent on a wild goose chase, assuming many fake identities
    • Songs
      • Live in Living Color
      • Don’t Break the Rules
      • Goodbye

Super Popular Musicals:
These are the musicals everyone always talks about. You probably know about them, but maybe you were never quite able to get into them, so here are songs do introduce yourself to them.

  • Hamilton
    • The (fictionalized) story of the life of Alexander Hamilton
    • Songs
      • Aaron Burr, Sir
      • Satisfied
      • The Room Where it Happens
  • Dear Evan Hansen
    • A teenager with anxiety finds himself in an unexpected situation when a classmate commits suicide
    • Songs
      • Waving Through a Window
      • Requiem
      • Only Us
  • Les Mis
    • The musical follows both a group of French revolutionaries and Jean Valjean, a supremely moral convict
    • Songs
      • Red and Black
      • One Day More
      • On My Own

Dark Musicals:
These are musicals that do not hit all the peppy beats typically associated with musical theater–have tissues handy.

  • Spring Awakening
    • Repressed 19th-century German teens try to cope with their burgeoning sexualities and the realities of their worlds
    • Songs
      • Mama Who Bore Me
      • The Bitch of Living
      • The Word of Your Body
  • Next to Normal
    • The story of a mother coping with depression and how it affects her family
    • Songs
      • Another Day
      • My Psychopharmacologist and I
      • I’m Alive
  • Bare: A Pop Opera
    • Two gay boys try to navigate their relationship at Catholic boarding school
    • Songs
      • You and I
      • All Grown Up
      • Bare

Unusual Musicals:
These are musicals that don’t quite fit in any other category. 

  • Bright Star
    • A young, ambitious man crosses paths with a woman, causing her to reminisce about her life
    • Songs
      • Bright Star
      • Woah Mama
      • Sun is Gonna Shine
  • A New Brain
    • A young composer is sent to the hospital after collapsing, causing his family and friends to rally around him
    • Songs
      • Frogs Have so Much Spring
      • Sailing
      • And They’re Off
  • Great Comet
    • A pop-opera version of an excerpt of War and Peace–a young, engaged girl attempts to elope with a married man
    • Songs
      • Prologue
      • The Ball
      • Balaga

i’ve never been this bare

Hooooo.

Saw bare the musical tonight. It’s been one of my favourites since I was… 16? 17? And I’m 27 now. I wrote essays on this musical in like, all my classes. I wrote songs based on this musical. 

It was so amazing to finally see the musical that I’ve been obsessively playing on and off for years. Like, I’d obsess for years… then have a break.. then obsess again. And ahhhhh.

I thought I’d be able to hold off tears, but nahhhhh, there were tears.

This month has been a little bit regressive. I’ve rewatched shows from my teenage years, read my favourite books from my teen years… And it’s been oddly healing. And inspiring. I’m remembering my original inspirations, and it just… feels good, when everything else hurts.