Improvements

So yesterday I went to the doctor to get my new Mental Health Care Plan cause for the first part of the year I was on the chronic health care plan.

And we filled in the K10 (which is a not-great indicator but hey, it’s better than nothing) and my score was fucking 24 out of 50.

And like. I never thought I’d see such a low number. I can’t recall my previous numbers, just that they were high 30s or low 40s.

And that’s pretty darn swell.

I’m worrying about minor shit, like a total lack of libido, rather than whether I’m going to survive the next week. Around my period, I get extremely unwell, but the rest of the month I’m okay. Like, anxiety rules my life, but that’s mostly about legit things, like how to get the money for grad school and how I’ll cope living overseas. Normal people things.

Fuck. It’s nice. I’m not always good. I feel my eating problems coming back. But. I’m not terrible right now which is super duper.