And yep. It seems I do struggle.

I want to have a voice. Not of anything of value. But just to be heard. Somehow.

I used to blog on fetlife… But I struggle to do that now because… I come across as mentally unstable, but really, I’m just talking about lessons and my life is happy most of the time and that’s not interesting to write about. And I don’t want to seem unstable to people I want to play and do edgeplay with. Cause like, I’m NOT unstable. I just write in really dark, emotive ways. 

And I can’t do it on Instagram because it feels too exposed. Same with FB. I wish I could. Maybe I should make a second acct? Idk. But it doesn’t feel like a safespace

And sure I have this Tumblr. But I miss having hundreds of followers who give a shit 😂

And what I need to do is curate content. Butttt I’m focusing on original stuff that I can’t post. So fan content, or rope content or whatever… Ehhh.

I just miss having a rambly voice and feeling heard. I used to feel heard. Now I feel really alone.